Educating Against Domestic Violence

New Computer

DKK — Mon, 25 Aug 2008 03:21:56 GMT

And a new name for me here - now DKK instead of KK. This computer doesn't remember my old login information...so it is just me.

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Magnolia...

Dianne — Tue, 19 Aug 2008 00:39:42 GMT

I know your doctor appt was on the 11th. Any news? Love you...

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Okay girls...

Dianne — Wed, 16 Jul 2008 02:51:50 GMT

It's time to check in again! Where have all of you disappeared to? KK, are you driving? Did Maude die or something? I know Magnolia is alive and kicking because I talked to her on the phone and Patty was just here in AZ so we got to do some eating and shopping!

I suppose it's a good sign when the board is slow because that means those of you who do post aren't being abused but the board has actually been very busy with readers, which is good unless they are looking for help and right now, we don't have too many messages regarding abuse due to the new frame work they put on this site...sorry.

I'm now in laser school. All theory at this point so I'm kind of bored. Can't wait for the hands on!

So, check in please!

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KK?

Dianne — Wed, 09 Apr 2008 13:31:45 GMT

What is your take on all of the women and children that have been removed from the Mormon compound? The news said they are not cooperating with the law.

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Patty is safe!

Dianne — Tue, 01 Apr 2008 15:08:33 GMT

I was watching the news yesterday morning and saw Edmond, OK was hit by a tornado and of course, this is where our Patty lives. Scared me silly so I called her and she's okay.

I don't know if any of you have been through a tornado scare but I did in TN and it was seriously frightening and I hope I never have to experience it again.

Stay safe, Patty.

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Where are all of you?

Dianne — Fri, 15 Feb 2008 22:10:49 GMT

Have you faded away or what? Let me hear from you and let me know how your all doing!

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Loving school

Dianne — Fri, 01 Feb 2008 23:58:08 GMT

I'm learning soooooo much about skin and the care of it. It's really interesting and the gals in my class are great. So far, I've passed all of my tests, which is a bonus!

I've had a ton of facials and given a ton and my face feels like a baby's butt. I learned how to extract blackheads today. I know...eeewww. Not as bad as you think because your hands are covered and so is your face with the mag light.

I can't believe how sanitary everything has to be. Makes me realize that maybe some of the facials I've had weren't all that germ free. Hmmm...

Anyway, I'm loving it!

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Guess what?

Dianne — Mon, 07 Jan 2008 14:27:03 GMT

Patty is coming to AZ to visit me next week! We are going to eat our way across Phoenix and possibly Sedona as well. I hope the weather is nice. Right now, we're getting some of that storm that hit CA. We need the rain so no problem.

Wish all of you could be here with us.

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Where are all of you?

Dianne — Fri, 09 Nov 2007 15:16:49 GMT

Please let me know how all of you are doing so I don't worry about ya!

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In case we forget...

Dianne — Mon, 22 Oct 2007 18:22:59 GMT

I just found this online. This is a letter to OJ from Nicole. He's an even bigger creep than I realized.

O.J. --

I think I have to put this all in a letter. Alot of years ago I used to do much better in a letter, I'm gonna try it again now. I'd like you to keep this letter if we split, so that you'll always know why we split. I'd also like you to keep it if we stay together, as a reminder. Right now I am so angry! If I didn't know that the courts would take Sydney & Justin away from me if I did this I would (expletive) every guy including some that you know just to let you know how it feels. I wish someone could explain all this to me. I see our marriage as a huge mistake & you don't.

I knew what went on in our relationship before we got married. I knew after 6 years that all the things I thought were going on -- were! All the things I gave in to -- all the "I'm sorry for thinking that" "I'm sorry for not believing you" -- "I'm sorry for not trusting you." I made up with you all the time & even took the blame many times for your cheating. I know this took place because we fought about it alot & even discussed it before we got married with my family & a minister. OK before the marriage I lived with it & dealt with (illegible) mainly because you finally said that we weren't married at the time. I assumed that your recurring nasty attitude & mean streak was to cover up your cheating & a general disrespect for women & a lack of manners!

I remember a long time ago a girlfriend of yours wrote you a letter -- she said well you aren't married yet so let's get together. Even she had the same idea of marriage as me. She believed that when you marry you wouldn't be going out anymore -- adultery is a very important thing to many people. It's one of the 1st 10 things I learned at Sunday school. You said it (illegible) some things you learn at school stick! And the 10 Comandments did! I wanted to be a wonderful wife! I believed you that it would finally be "you & me against the world" -- that people would be envious or in awe of us because we stuck through it & finally became one a real couple.

I let my guard down -- I thought it was finally gonna be you & me -- you wanted a baby (so you said) & I wanted a baby -- then with each pound you were terrible. You gave me dirty looks looks of disgust -- said mean things to me at times about my appearance walked out on me & lied to me.

I remember one day my mom said "he actually thinks you can have a baby & not get fat." I gained 10 to 15 lbs more that I should have with Sydney. Well that's by the book -- Most women gain twice that. It's not like it was that much -- but you made me feel so ugly! I've battled 10 lbs up & down the scale since I was 15 -- It was no more X-tra weight than was normal for me to be up -- I believe my mom -- you thought a baby weighs 7 lbs & the woman should gain 7 lbs. I'd like to finally tell you that that's not the way it is -- And had you read those books I got you on pregnancy you may have known that.

Talk about feeling alone ....

In between Sydney & justin you say my clothes bothered you -- that my shoes were on the floor that I bugged you -- Wow that's so terrible! Try I had a low self esteem because since we got married I felt like the paragraph above. There was also that time before Justin & after few months Sydney, I felt really good about how I got back into shape and we made out. You beat the holy hell out of me & we lied at the X-ray lab & said I fell off a bike ... Remember!??

Great for my self esteem.

There are a number of other instances that I could talk about that made my marriage so wonderful ... like the televised Clipper game & going to (illegible) before the game & your 40th birthday party & the week leading up to it. But I don't like talking about the past It depressed me. Then came the pregnancy with Justin & oh how wonderful you treated me again -- I remember swearing to God & myself that under no circumstances would I let you be in that delivery room.

I hated you so much. And since Justin birth & the mad New Years Eve beat up. I just don't see how our stories compare -- I was so bad because I wore sweats & left shoes around & didn't keep a perfect house or comb my hair the way you liked it -- or had dinner ready at the precise moment you walked through the door or that I just plain got on your nerves sometimes. I just don't see how that compares to infidelity, wife beating verbal abuse -- I just don't think everybody goes through this --

And if I wanted to hurt you or had it in me to be anything like the person you are -- I would have done so after the (illegible) incident. But I didn't even do it then. I called the cops to save my life whether you believe it or not. But I didn't pursue anything after that -- I didn't prosecute, I didn't call the press & I didn't make a big charade out of it. I waited for it to die down and asked for it to. But I've never loved you since or been the same.

It made me take a look at my life with you -- my wonderful life with the superstar that wonderful man, O.J. Simpson the father of my kids -- that husband of that terribly insecure (illegible) -- the girl with no self esteem (illegible) of worth -- she must be (illegible) those things to with a guy like that. It certainly doesn't take a strong person to be with a guy like that and certainly no one would be envious of that life. I agree after we married things changed -- we couldn't have house fulls of people like I used to have over & barbque for, because I had other responsabilities. I didn't want to go to alot of events & I'd back down at the last minute on fuctions & trips I admit I'm sorry --

I just believe that a relationship is based on trust -- and the last time I trusted you was at our wedding ceremony. it's just so hard for me to trust you again. Even though you say you're a different guy. That O.J. Simpson guy brought me alot of pain heatache -- I tried so hard with him -- I wanted so to be a good wife. But he never gave me a chance.

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On the road again

Dianne — Tue, 09 Oct 2007 14:39:11 GMT

Or should I say, in the sky again? I am leaving tomorrow to fly to Texas for a speaking gig. Magnolia, I'll get to spend time with Cindy (CJ) so it should be a blast. She's my songwriting friend that lived in Nashville. We always have so much fun.

So anyhoo...please take care of each other while I'm gone. I'll be home Saturday.

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BUMMER, Telemarketers!!

Editor — Mon, 01 Oct 2007 02:47:35 GMT

As of October 1st. (tomorrow.) ALL cell phone numbers are being made available to Telemarketing Companys...I was given a number that would keep me on a safe list for 5 years, I am sharing that number with all of you. Hopefully it will be adhered to.

Just call (888) 382-1222 and do whatever it says.

Been away awhile very busy ghostwriting a really large novel. Plus editing no les than 5 manuscripts. UGH!!! Hope everyone is fine.
Miss you all.
Chatty

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